Training wasn't great at all. It hasn't been great for a long time. You know what? I'm beginning to lose confidence in myself already. I'm upset and I'll just stay home thinking what's wrong me. And while doing my sets today, I just feel like crying. Because it's so demoralizing to see myself like this, I tried to pick myself up but I can't. It's like I've "hit the wall" or something. I can't move on or move up. I'm just staying stagnant.

Competition is like a month away from now. I can't afford to waste time on wallowing in self pity anymore, hoping that a miracle will happen to me. If I want results, I must work hard for it. But, why am I like this now?

Gahhh, this is so depressing! Ok! Enough AiXing *slaps*

I promise that I'll work doubly hard. I'll work on my fitness especially. No problem with my gym, just running/stamina. At the end of the day, I'm responsible to myself not anyone.

I realized that I like to talk to myself on blog, so don't mind me =]